85 years old.

i am turning into a grandma. ready to go to bed at 11. cant survive a day without coffee in one hand & the New York Times in the other. watch Greys Anatomy on dvd before bed every night. looking for a job. applying for intenships. deciding what to do with my life 4 months from now when i graduate. balancing my checkbook for the first time since the day i moved to college. paying the cable bill. walking the dog. cleaning up Emmy's throw up. putting together a portfolio. typing up my resume. growing up. moving to charleston? moving nonetheless. i dont have anything to say except actions have consequences.


Fear of failure, fear of rejection, sometimes the fear is just of making a decision, because what if you're wrong? What if you're making a mistake you can't undo? Still sometimes we have to see for ourselves. We have to make our own mistakes. We have to learn our own lessons. We have to sweep today's possibility under tomorrow's rug until we can't anymore. Until we finally understand for ourselves what Benjamin Franklin really meant. That knowing is better than wondering, that waking is better than sleeping, and even the biggest failure, even the worst, beats the hell out of never trying. -grey's anatomy